A couple of months ago, I made a conscious decision to refocus my energy. I realized that I was spending too much of my energy worrying/complaining about work. So, I took a deep breath and made the decision. I'll go to work, do my job as hard as I can, let all the crap fall by the wayside, leave, and live my true life. I think I am doing pretty well.

Truth is, I have been able to let go of a lot of things since I started living as an out gay man. But I have had a habit of letting work govern my state of mind. I sometimes needed to remind myself that it isn't work that matters most. Things happen at work all the time. Lots of good things. But we almost always remember the bad things. If you think about it, without judgment, things that happen at work are... just things that happen. Our job is to smooth them all out. Some things can be joyous. Some things can be disheartening. Some things can seem like it is all about to end. Some things can make you feel like you could do it forever. But, they are just things. That's all.

Not things to pull your hair out over. Not things to bring home to your partner. Not things to lose sleep over. Not things to stifle your creativity. Not things to steal away your time to live. Just things. Things that will not matter in a few days. It all passes after a while. And you realize that even those worst things were not worth the energy. Ever. Later.  ¶ 9:31 PM