I'm am suddenly feeling a heavy sadness. Nothing serious. Well, nothing serious happened with my family. On the contrary, things are good. Just spoke with my parents and they are doing well. They are in the States and will be coming to the City toward the end of June. They seem to be enjoying their retirement quite exceptionally.
I'm not sure why this heavy sadness started. I just got done watching Brothers & Sisters
. Kevin proposed to Scotty
. I should be happy. I am but I feel... slightly less full of joy.
It could be that I had a great time this weekend hanging with my friend, Richard. We went dancing at Splash
. Had a blast. Music was great. And now, I am coming off the the high. I never felt this way when I was doing serious party drugs. I guess I was numb then.
I also just found out that one of my good friends is moving to Atlanta to be with the man she loves. I am happy for her but her moves signifies another "New York City" person moving on. Maybe, I fear that my time to move on is coming soon. Doesn't everybody just eventually move out of this City? I hate that they do. But they do. At least she will be moving someplace that I love. And have friends. So, I am sure we will keep in touch and see each other.
I also got some serious news about someone I work with. Well, I am not sure if it is serious but everything points toward it being serious. I hope everything will be fine. I am not going to be in the store tomorrow, so I probably will not find out anything until I get in Tuesday. I feel dread about this situation. I hope it is not anything I can think of.
The upcoming work week is relatively quiet. It'll give me a chance to shake off this heavy sadness. I hope. Later.