Sweet Mother of Mercy!!!! I have gained four pounds in the last year!!! I'm depressed. I used to weight 184 lbs. Now, I weigh 188 lbs. And yes, I always use the same scale to weigh myself. It's just that I no longer do a lot of cardio on top of the fact that there are so many samples at work plus I eat like a horse and I love sugar. Damn it all to hell!

So, I've decided to stop buying lunch at work and start bringing in lunch from home. That way, I can control my portions and what I eat. I made beef stew with string beans and mushrooms plus a braised chicken dish with artichokes, olives, and capers. And I am going to make some bolognese sauce for some whole wheat pasta which I have stocked up on. I think those will be better choices than the usual bagel with cream cheese plus four slices of ham that I tend to have at work not to mention the occasional bbq boneless chicken or the cheddar/scallion scone. Did I mention the cookies that I am in charge of sampling everyday? I think I may have to put away the cookie jar (which I never fail to fill with some kind of sweet goodness).

A friend told me that I look like I am getting leaner and more muscular. As if that helps at all. I'll have to start pushing myself to do more cardio. I think I'll do some tomorrow. It's all so distressing to me. I guess it could be the wine that I consume. Or the beers. Yes, I do drink beer. Maybe I shouldn't have had that piece of cheesecake tonight... even if it was sugar-free.

Later.  ¶ 10:11 PM