There are moments in your life when all seems very grim and low. I am very thankful that I have the following in my life to help me out of those times: my beloved partner of six-plus years, my best friend Kelsie, several other friends & supporters, and the gym.

When all seems lost, the gym has always been a good place for me to go. Unlike most, I find comfort in being able to exercise. I guess it gives me a sense of control which is what one loses one doesn't get something they really want. One of the best parts of me being rejected for something is that it fuels my desire to work out harder and more intensely. The physical results are certainly pleasing.

I've given myself one more day of self-pity, then it's done. I'm moving on. It's the only thing I can do. It's the only thing I must do. It's the only thing WE all must do. Oh, I'm also thankful that my kitty loves me. I think pets sense their owner's loss. I think she did. She just kept licking my hands as if to say, "If they won't have you, I will." Later.
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